May 2012
15 posts
You were the one that taught us that, as long as you promised anyone anything, you have to keep your word.
I acknowledge you for what you do to keep strong.
Who we are, when love is what it wants to be?
I have every reason to be disappointed, to be let down and to be ashamed. For all those expectations I couldn’t handle, for all that confidence I couldn’t tether, for all that I’ve been told and made to believe in. Sometimes they say “hey, it’s up to you to believe what people think”, and “it’s up to you to listen to what people have to say”. So I’m...
I know that you’ll always be there. But the more you promise me, the more poignant it gets when you’re not around.
I don’t quite know how to get my life back on track.
You never give up. But you never learn either.
“Don’t give up. Keep going. There is always a chance that you stumble onto...”
– Ann Landers (via kari-shma)
April 2012
32 posts
I guess I ought to be thankful for so many things, so many people, on so many levels (:
Tall order.
The feeling of being pulled, stretched and tied in these many directions: I know I’ve always wanted to feel purposeful, driven, motivated and outstanding. When I get things done fast, done well, done meaningfully, I feel good about myself. And that’s how it always has been, and that’s how it always will be. That’s also how I got myself into this rut of responsibilities...
Whoever said “Have no expectations and therefore, no disappointments” is utterly ridiculous. Everyone has expectations. If you have no expectations in what you’re doing, you have no goal or aim and you have no desired direction to work towards; you also have no motive, and if you have no motive then how can you assess your impact? And then, what’s the point of doing...
Is it bad, stupid or naive that I don’t know where to stop, what to hold on, when to step back?
And by leaving my door open, I’m risking everything I own; But there’s nothing I can lose in the break-in that you haven’t taken.
I wish I knew when enough was enough.
“What becomes of words
when they never find the eyes
they were written for?”
–
Daily Haiku on Love by Tyler Knott Gregson
(via tylerknott)
If I’ve to keep relying on you to make things better, then I’m afraid I may waste too many days being grey.
“I need to reset my bones
swingset my ribcage
so the next time somebody pushes...”
– Andrea Gibson, Jellyfish (via loveyourchaos)
The only game where love means nothing.
On so many levels, I’m unprepared.
To not have to worry over competitions, To not have to pack my tournament attire, To not have to be worried and comforted time and again, To not have to leave class early to dash to the courts, To not have to umpire or play for NJ anymore, To not have to run countless matches through my head, To not have to feel that pang at every double fault/ out ball/...
“It sucks, doesn’t it? Feeling like you’re second choice.”
– Pretty Little Liars (via lostinthesounds)
“I walk around the school hallways and look at the people. I look at the teachers...”
– The Perks of Being a Wallflower by Stephen Chbosky (via quote-book)
Don't play with me.
Sometimes it hurts. But how do I tell you? How should I face you? I can’t even look at you without feeling like you’ve betrayed me so extensively. No, feeling like you’ve just ripped out my heart and lungs and hanging it out to dry, leaving me panting for grappling for whatever life’s left out of this ordeal. Then we reach another hurdle and everything repeats.
“Human beings are ambitious. We spend so much time wanting, pursuing, wishing....”
– One Tree Hill Series Finale (via raindropsonredroses)
For a moment I actually thought that my petty grievances would actually be put to thought and consolation. But it’s like it’s confirmed, that I can’t even tell anyone I’m going insane until I go nuts for real.
When the oceans rise and thunders roar
I need to go back to Phnom Penh so bad. :(
March 2012
27 posts
